Greetings from a mom who is experiencing extreme highs and lows in the midst of our 2nd son
graduating from High School. Please forgive me with the description of bipolar
but to me in this season of my life, that is how I can best describe my emotional state.
How can it be that our precious son has accomplished school and is making his way into the world as an adult?
But let me just tell you that he has been adulting already. He is extremely responsible, works hard and has a job to pay for the small needs he has. His hard work to accomplish a 4.0 his entire school career, speaks volumes of his work ethic and desire to give his best. It is a parent’s dream to see this already in his life. This is where my emotions get me. He is already doing amazing things. And now with graduation, he is launching into college. I am so proud that every fiber of my being is just screaming
“HOW DID I GET SO BLESSED TO BE HIS MOM???”
I am simply overwhelmed with such gratitude, praise and love that I can’t help express it.
Friends, it is a blink of an eye.
It happens that quick and amazement kicks in….the seasons of life are truly seasons.
This season is BITTERSWEET, exciting and sad all at the same time.
One minute busting with pride and excitement for all the ways Josh has blossomed, matured blows my mind. And then it hits, my little boy who needed me so desperately is ready to go. He is excited to be out and doing life on his own. He has goals, desires and a dream he is working to achieve. We are celebrating and yet, I am reflecting over all the years and asking myself, did I do enough?
Did I embrace that season of his childhood enough?
Did he know we loved doing baseball every weekend?
So many questions and wondering…but this I know with every fiber of my being, He is a child of God and I was given the job of being his Mom. My definition of mom is not to hold onto, hold him back or keep him in a bubble. IT IS to prepare, teach and encourage him to be all that God has created him to be. Life is moving, changing and nothing stays the same, even though many days are a routine. Community and wise women in my life have given me the gift of knowledge through experience….nothing stays the same.
So in my bipolar moments, I embrace them fully knowing from the depth of my being that I am expressing the fullness of all that is in me….God, thank you for the wide range of emotions and may it all be grounded in YOUR LOVE and TRUTH!