Yesterday was a crazy, busy day! It was spent preparing lunch and serving others at work. It was my joy and most of my energy was poured into the details. There was a moment in the busyness of it all that I reacted in a situation that SHOCKED me….as I look back. My mental outlook needs to shift into “what I can I learn from this?” Navigating on new grounds of a different job environment and personalities, a new space to work in with many different perspective, my motivation must be how can I elevate my reaction?
A verse in Isaiah that I cling to constantly is “Look I am doing a new thing!!!” Everything is new. That also means what I do moving forward needs to be new, different than what I would do in the past. And I am confident in the past I would analyze the entire situation, every word spoken and justify why I reacted the way I did. But is that really helpful?
It is time for a new way of thinking, doing and being!
It starts with the simple reality that the time and energy I have invested into my self care routine is vital and essential to my mission. These days are different because I am working on a clean and free campaign within my body, my new mission. It is a work of removing the junk that I can easily feed my body and detoxing from dependency on an antidepressant. This is the beginning of a deeper awareness and understanding of who I am FREE! FREE and COMPLETELY DEPENDENT on GOD. Free of all other dependencies. It is checking in with myself, moving my body (not exercising like a crazy lady), and looking for balance-mind, body, spirit and heart.
Morning routine begins with praising GOD. Praising Him for a new day. Praising Him for new habits and scared space. And when I over react, react in disrespect, it is easy to travel down the path of “if only I was still taking my anti-depressant” I wouldn’t react that way. NOTE to SELF: I am learning a new way. A new way to communicate, express myself in a loving manner yet firm and articulate.
Making time, taking time and being present with myself is a new thing BUT IT DOES MATTER and makes a difference!!
Dear God, Thank you for the opportunity to serve, learn, grow and lean deeper into YOU. Thank you for a new self awareness and the amazing physical body you have created. May I continue to educate and take steps to excellent stewardship of mt temple. YOU ARE AN AWESOME GOD!!!!!